I think I have never ever felt more stupid about myself than this moment
god,it'so embarrassing and humiliating
I never expect my 'confession' would turn out to be like this
I thought what happened in the latest 15 days was already dramatic enough
and now.... god...
It's just...
To be honest, I did have doubts about whether it would remain a secret or not
but actually hearing you say it, everything...
it was too harsh for me to carry
I am very confused now
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2008/5/24
才过了一个多月再看那时候写的blog就已经觉得自己的幼稚，
这几天经历了太多太多的事情
深呼吸 咬紧嘴唇 然后说 I have to go
从来都是这样
从来都是这样
每天收到的消息都是诸如 不要硬撑，不要太累，好好休息，照顾自己
只能自己苦笑
生活还是要继续
然后我会更强迫自己 没办法
转身的时候他说 non piangere,别哭
这一切的一切可能就是让我每天
面带的坚强和冷漠
虽然这几天我才意识到其实我是这么的脆弱
崇尚自由 天蝎座女子 
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